I think my new pen name should be I.B. Ventin.
In any case, I.B. Ventin' now.
Truth be told, with all the fuckery with these medical conditions and medications, plus the general stress of my life, if it weren't for the fact that stopping taking the medications would leave me incapacitated rather than dead, I'd stop taking them.
I don't want to become non-functional.
I don't want to become a burden.
I'm not afraid of being dead.
There are a lot of moments when I'd welcome it. I wouldn't fight it.
Death is not the worst thing that can happen to a person.
Being unable to function is.
Fuck my lousy piece of shit endocrine system and my warped brain straight to hell.
The Cheese Hath Grated It
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I know how you feel, Love. Although for me it isn't my endocrine system as such, it's my immune system. I thought I would die but I haven't yet. People who care about me for reasons I couldn't possible figure out told me to keep taking the medications.
It is a pain and this life is a pain. But I think you are better than you know.
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