Tuesday, February 28, 2017

The Gift of Hate or The Gift of Love?



When a gift is offered by the giver but refused by the recipient who does the gift belong to?
Obviously, the gift remains with the giver. The gift is theirs. They own it until the point when the gift is accepted.

So it is with hate. When someone presents you with hate simply say, "No thanks, I do not want your gift of hate, you keep it." That way hate does not burn you nor does it corrode your soul for hate need not be a two-way gift. Only  love can defeat hate not hate itself. 

Tuesday, February 21, 2017

A Holistic Approach


People are always arguing and sometimes killing each other over our beliefs. On one side you have the fundamentalist extremists of whatever religion saying that anyone who doesn't believe as they do is a damned infidel. On the other side of the coin, you have the extreme materialists who feel that anyone who has spiritual or metaphysical beliefs is a damned idiot. Then you have those who are caught in the middle who believe that something beyond the material is at least a possibility but don't claim to understand the exact nature of it. We catch hell from both sides.
What if, however, we looked at it as everyone having their place in the scheme of things?
What if those among us who find the spiritual iffy and prefer the purely scientific are programmed that way, so to speak, in order to specialize in those things of a material nature?
What if the true believers among us have some sort of line to the higher realms and can help keep the rest of us connected?
What if those of us who are in between are this way in order to help keep the balance between the two?
What if we weren't constantly tearing at each other's throats but instead were working together for the good of this world at least, and perhaps even the good of the Cosmos?
When we go against our nature, it causes us pain.
I have found that every time I try to see the world from a purely materialist point of view, it makes me profoundly unhappy. To a hardline materialist, this probably means that I'm simply a miserable, delusional, mentally ill person who needs illusion in order to survive a difficult life which, when it ends, will result in me becoming a pile of ashes and mercifully existing miserably no longer.
Perhaps they're correct, but they may not be. The one thing the agnostic knows is that we don't know anything for certain regarding the possibility of spirit, afterlife or such.
I cannot see the world through the eyes of a true believer in any of the major monotheistic religions, because for me, it doesn't ring true. This does not mean that their devotion to their particular deity of choice is incorrect, it only means that said devotion does not work for this soul.
I'm something of a polytheist, but again, an agnostic one. At this point I'm not especially concerned with deities. I need to work closer to home. I enjoy working with and receiving ideas from the realm of spirit, but I realize that many people either do not approve of or disbelieve in what I do. With very little in the way of support, sometimes it is difficult for me to continue. This is when I start to shut myself down.
I want to be that person who shows others like me that it's okay to be what you are, but I don't know if there really are others like me. I want to be the person who tells others, whether they are like me or not, that it's okay to be what you are, but I don't imagine too many people give a rat's ass whether I think it's okay or not.
I would just like it if we could try to understand that maybe it is not a bad thing to be someone who focuses on the material realms, or someone who focuses on the high spiritual realms, or someone who is drawn to the dark realms, or someone who feels drawn to that which is between. I feel that if we don't start working together rather than tearing each other down, there is not much hope for any of us.

~Cie~

Monday, February 20, 2017

The Cheese Grates It: Don't Use Health Conditions As Insults: Bipolar Disorder

Not my creation
This is a much more accurate illustration of what bipolar disorder actually looks like than the bullshit idea that people have when they say someone is "so bipolar." 
For my own part, I get hypomania rather than full mania. I've never been prone to doing things like taking my paycheck, flying to Las Vegas, gambling it all away, and marrying someone I've known for only a few hours. 
The kinds of things I've done in the past include getting into relationships with people who might as well be wearing a sign that says I'M AN ABUSER because I thought there was some sort of "supernatural pull" and then allowing him to do really awful things to me because hypersexuality tends to collude with self-loathing in extremely bad ways. 
In both the past and present I do things like take on extra work when I'm hypomanic, writing checks that my euthymic and/or depressive self can't cash, so to speak, and then crashing big time.
Before I was properly treated for bipolar disorder, the irritability and paranoia came close to ruining the one most important relationship in my life; the one I have with my son. I had a Jekyll and Hyde personality and when a kid doesn't know whether they're going to get the nice mom that lets them pick a toy from the toy closet or bids $200 on a basket of Beanie Babies for them at the school fund raiser or the mom who lectures them for two hours about some minor infraction, that is extremely stressful. 
I wish the truth about the disease had been discovered sooner, not only so I might have had a chance at pursuing a career that would have given me a good income (yes, it really is too late at this point) but more importantly so when my son was young he could have felt secure that Mom was going to be the person he needed, not the raging bitch who was going to rip him a new one for two hours because he didn't want to eat the god damn apple she packed in his lunch, or something stupid like that.
 At this point, I pretty much present as a porcupine, meaning that I might be defensive because I fear being attacked, but you wouldn't know that I have bipolar disorder unless I told you. I don't do outrageous things. I don't miss work because of my condition. 
My presentation doesn't radically switch suddenly from life of the party to gloomy. It sometimes does inside, but it won't show on the outside. I don't present as particularly mercurial. What you don't see is the constant battle that I have with myself. I know very well that I'm extremely different from other people. It is difficult for me to have actual friendships, and romantic relationships are entirely impossible.
The truth is, I make the decision whether or not to kill myself every day. Each day I weigh my options. Literally. I do this every day. A lot of people with this condition do. 
So, next time you're thinking about calling someone who is moody or mercurial "so bipolar", stop. Don't. Call them moody or mercurial if you must call them something. 
People with bipolar disorder aren't necessarily moody or mercurial, and people who are moody or mercurial may or may not have bipolar disorder. Don't make light of something that is a daily struggle for people.

~The Cheese Hath Grated It~


Sunday, February 19, 2017

Guilt and Love

Image courtesy of Wikipedia

All humans have done wrong be it little or large. That means all humans are as equally guilty as the next human. Harbouring a grudge is as foolish as holding fast to your guilt. Forgive others as you forgive yourself. Be sincere. Try not to repeat mistakes but don't forever blame yourself if you cause inadvertent harm. Apologise for the hurt caused but remember when those you have hurt do not forgive you that they too are as guilty of having caused another grief. Life is too short to allow guilt, self-recrimination or another's blame transference to upset your equilibrium. Listen to others even if they do not listen to you. Be at peace with yourself.

In Memory of Bon Scott 2017

9 July 1946 - 19 February 1980

It is hard for me to believe that it is 37 years since Bon Scott's passing. I found out only a few days after I turned 15. This may seem like a real lame ass admission to the sophisticated types who may be reading these words, but I was rather in love with him at the time, and beyond that, I just liked him. He was a good person and something of a personal hero, someone who I would think of when I was trying to be brave. 
His death devastated me. I've actually never gotten over it, although, and you can take this as you want to, (but don't be a dick) I've accepted it because he's told me that things are okay. 
Bon may be best known for his infamously cheeky song lyrics, but I always thought that the best thing about him was his wish to bring a bit of laughter and fun into the lives of others. I always felt like he realized that a lot of people were living difficult lives and maybe he thought he didn't have a lot of ability to change that, but he did have a knack for writing songs and making people laugh. It was sort of like he was saying "I know you've had a raw deal in life, Mate, but here's something to take your mind off that for a minute. It's my humble gift to you."
That humble gift was worth a lot and far outweighs any of the mistakes he may have made along the way. He was a good guy, and I will always think of him fondly.

~Cie~

Saturday, February 18, 2017

The Cheese Grates It: Thin Does Not Always Equal Healthy


Regarding the whole thin equals healthy bullshit. My great grandmother was a large lady for most of her life, and then she lost a lot of weight really quickly. She went from approximately 300 pounds to less than 100 in the space of a year, and then she died. Acute myelogenous leukemia will do that to you.
I've not been feeling well lately. My stomach hurts and I have to force myself to eat right now. The Eating Disorder part of my brain is thrilled about this. if we don't eat, we get thin! Yaaaaay!
Yeah, except getting thin probably won't happen unless I get really sick like my great grandmother did. My body is not wired for thin.
I just know, though, if I got really sick and started losing a butt ton of weight, people would be praising how "healthy" I look, even though my hair was falling out, my skin had the pallor of death, and I was so weak that I couldn't stand up.
I'd rip them a new one. Might be doing them a favor, so they could get rid of all those shitty ideas they'd been harboring.

~The Cheese Hath Grated It~



Thursday, February 16, 2017

Democracy, Religion, Faith, Philosophy

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Without dialogue, democracy dies. Communication is the fuel that feeds debate, debate empowers democracy. No doubt Socrates was right, Democracy can only succeed if the electorate is educated, well informed. For that, you need education, education and a free press. Intelligence without compassion is merely knowledge. Knowledge without compassion is moderation without morals. What point is having moderation managed by the immoderate? Morals matter. Without morals, humankind ceases to be human.

When we think of nations who purport to have democracy who is it we think of? The USA? The UK? Europe? You'll be surprised. The following is from the Democracy Index as compiled by UK-based Economist Intelligence Unit...

"that measures the state of democracy in 167 countries, of which 166 are sovereign states and 165 are UN member states. The index was first produced in 2006, with updates for 2008, 2010 and the following years since then. The index is based on 60 indicators grouped in five different categories measuring pluralism, civil liberties, and political culture. In addition to a numeric score and a ranking, the index categorises countries as one of four regime types: full democraciesflawed democracieshybrid regimes and authoritarian regimes."

Democracy Index 2016
RankCountryScoreElectoral process
and pluralism
Functioning of
government
Political
participation
Political
culture
Civil
liberties
Category
1 Norway9.9310.009.6410.0010.0010.00Full democracy
2 Iceland9.5010.008.938.8910.009.71Full democracy
3 Sweden9.399.589.648.3310.009.41Full democracy
4 New Zealand9.2610.009.298.898.1310.00Full democracy
5 Denmark9.209.589.298.339.389.41Full democracy
6 Canada9.159.589.647.788.7510.00Full democracy
6 Ireland9.159.587.868.3310.0010.00Full democracy
8  Switzerland9.099.589.297.789.389.41Full democracy
9 Finland9.0310.008.937.788.759.71Full democracy
10 Australia9.019.588.937.788.7510.00Full democracy
11 Luxembourg8.8110.008.936.678.759.71Full democracy
12 Netherlands8.809.588.578.338.139.41Full democracy
13 Germany8.639.588.577.787.509.71Full democracy
14 Austria8.419.587.868.336.889.41Full democracy
15 Malta8.399.178.216.118.759.71Full democracy
16 United Kingdom8.369.587.147.228.759.12Full democracy
17 Spain8.309.587.147.228.139.41Full democracy
18 Mauritius8.289.178.215.568.759.71Full democracy
19 Uruguay8.1710.008.934.447.5010.00Full democracy
20 Japan7.998.758.216.677.508.82Flawed democracy
21 United States7.989.177.147.228.138.24Flawed democracy
21 Italy7.989.586.437.228.138.53Flawed democracy
23 Cape Verde7.949.177.866.676.889.12Flawed democracy
24 France7.929.587.147.786.258.82Flawed democracy
24 South Korea7.929.177.507.727.508.24Flawed democracy
26 Costa Rica7.889.587.146.116.889.71Flawed democracy
27 Botswana7.879.177.146.117.509.41Flawed democracy
28 Portugal7.869.586.796.676.889.41Flawed democracy
29 Israel7.859.177.508.897.506.18Flawed democracy
29 Estonia7.859.587.866.116.888.82Flawed democracy
31 Czech Republic7.829.587.146.676.888.82Flawed democracy
32 India7.819.587.507.225.639.12Flawed democracy
33 Taiwan7.799.588.216.115.639.41Flawed democracy
34 Chile7.789.588.574.446.889.41Flawed democracy
35 Belgium7.779.588.575.006.888.82Flawed democracy
36 Cyprus7.659.176.436.676.889.12Flawed democracy
37 Slovenia7.519.587.146.675.638.53Flawed democracy
38 Lithuania7.479.585.716.116.259.71Flawed democracy
39 South Africa7.417.927.868.335.007.94Flawed democracy
40 Jamaica7.399.176.795.006.889.12Flawed democracy
41 Latvia7.319.585.715.566.888.82Flawed democracy
42 Slovakia7.299.587.145.565.638.53Flawed democracy
43 Timor-Leste7.248.677.145.566.887.94Flawed democracy
44 Greece7.239.585.366.116.258.82Flawed democracy
45 Panama7.139.586.436.115.008.82Flawed democracy
46 Trinidad and Tobago7.109.587.145.565.008.24Flawed democracy
47 Bulgaria7.019.176.077.224.388.24Flawed democracy
48 Indonesia6.977.757.146.676.257.06Flawed democracy
49 Argentina6.969.175.006.116.887.65Flawed democracy
50 Philippines6.949.175.717.224.388.24Flawed democracy
51 Brazil6.909.586.795.563.758.82Flawed democracy
52 Poland6.839.175.716.674.388.24Flawed democracy
53 Suriname6.779.176.435.005.008.24Flawed democracy
54 Croatia6.759.176.075.565.007.94Flawed democracy
54 Ghana6.758.335.716.116.257.35Flawed democracy
56 Hungary6.729.176.074.446.887.06Flawed democracy
57 Dominican Republic6.678.755.715.006.257.65Flawed democracy
57 Colombia6.679.177.144.444.388.24Flawed democracy
59 Peru6.659.175.366.114.388.24Flawed democracy
60 El Salvador6.649.176.074.445.008.53Flawed democracy
61 Romania6.629.175.715.005.008.24Flawed democracy
61 Mongolia6.629.175.715.005.008.24Flawed democracy
63 Lesotho6.598.255.366.675.637.06Flawed democracy
64 Serbia6.578.755.366.675.007.06Flawed democracy
65 Malaysia6.546.927.866.116.255.59Flawed democracy
66 Sri Lanka6.487.836.795.006.885.88Flawed democracy
67 Mexico6.477.926.077.224.386.76Flawed democracy
68 Hong Kong6.423.925.715.567.509.41Flawed democracy
69 Tunisia6.406.006.077.786.255.58Flawed democracy
70 Singapore6.384.337.866.616.257.35Flawed democracy
71 Namibia6.315.675.366.675.638.24Flawed democracy
72 Paraguay6.278.335.715.004.387.94Flawed democracy
73 Guyana6.258.335.366.114.387.06Flawed democracy
74 Senegal6.217.925.364.446.257.06Flawed democracy
75 Papua New Guinea6.036.926.073.895.637.65Flawed democracy
76 Moldova6.017.924.296.114.387.35Flawed democracy
77 Zambia5.997.085.363.896.886.76Hybrid regime
78 Georgia5.938.674.296.115.005.59Hybrid regime
79 Honduras5.929.175.713.894.386.47Hybrid regime
79 Guatemala5.927.926.073.894.387.35Hybrid regime
81 Albania5.917.004.365.565.007.65Hybrid regime
82 Ecuador5.818.254.645.004.386.76Hybrid regime
83 Tanzania5.767.005.005.566.255.00Hybrid regime
84 Bangladesh5.737.425.075.004.386.76Hybrid regime
85 Montenegro5.727.085.365.004.386.76Hybrid regime
86 Ukraine5.705.833.936.675.007.06Hybrid regime
86 Mali5.707.423.934.446.256.47Hybrid regime
88 Benin5.676.505.365.005.635.88Hybrid regime
89 Fiji5.644.585.716.675.635.59Hybrid regime
90 Bolivia5.637.005.365.003.757.06Hybrid regime
91 Malawi5.556.584.294.446.256.18Hybrid regime
92 Kenya5.334.335.006.675.635.00Hybrid regime
93 Liberia5.317.832.575.565.005.59Hybrid regime
94 Uganda5.265.253.574.446.886.18Hybrid regime
95 Macedonia5.236.923.216.113.756.18Hybrid regime
96 Madagascar5.075.923.575.565.634.71Hybrid regime
97 Turkey5.045.836.075.005.632.65Hybrid regime
98 Kyrgyzstan4.937.422.935.563.755.00Hybrid regime
98 Bhutan4.938.335.362.784.383.82Hybrid regime
100 Thailand4.924.503.935.005.006.18Hybrid regime
101 Bosnia and Herzegovina4.876.502.935.003.756.18Hybrid regime
102 Lebanon4.864.422.147.784.385.59Hybrid regime
102   Nepal4.864.334.294.445.635.59Hybrid regime
104 Nicaragua4.814.503.293.895.636.76Hybrid regime
105 Morocco4.774.754.644.445.634.41Hybrid regime
106 Burkina Faso4.704.424.294.445.634.71Hybrid regime
107 Venezuela4.685.672.505.564.385.29Hybrid regime
108 Sierra Leone4.555.681.862.786.255.29Hybrid regime
109 Nigeria4.506.084.293.334.384.41Hybrid regime
110 Palestine4.494.332.147.784.383.82Hybrid regime
111 Pakistan4.336.005.362.782.505.00Hybrid regime
112 Cambodia4.273.175.713.335.004.12Hybrid regime
113 Myanmar4.203.173.574.446.882.94Hybrid regime
114 Iraq4.084.330.077.224.384.41Hybrid regime
115 Mozambique4.024.422.145.005.003.53Hybrid regime
115 Haiti4.025.172.212.223.756.76Hybrid regime
117 Mauritania3.963.004.295.003.134.41Authoritarian
117 Jordan3.964.004.293.894.383.24Authoritarian
117 Niger3.964.752.212.223.756.76Authoritarian
120 Armenia3.884.332.864.441.885.88Authoritarian
121 Kuwait3.853.174.293.894.383.53Authoritarian
122 Ivory Coast3.813.422.863.335.633.82Authoritarian
123 Gabon3.742.582.214.445.633.82Authoritarian
124 Comoros3.714.332.214.443.753.82Authoritarian
125 Ethiopia3.600.003.575.565.633.24Authoritarian
126 Algeria3.562.582.213.895.004.12Authoritarian
127 Belarus3.541.333.573.896.252.65Authoritarian
128 Cameroon3.462.003.213.894.383.82Authoritarian
128 Cuba3.461.754.643.894.382.65Authoritarian
130 Angola3.400.923.215.564.382.94Authoritarian
131 Vietnam3.380.003.213.896.882.94Authoritarian
132 Togo3.323.581.142.785.004.12Authoritarian
133 Egypt3.312.583.933.333.752.94Authoritarian
134 Russia3.242.672.505.002.503.53Authoritarian
135 Qatar3.180.003.932.225.634.12Authoritarian
136 China3.140.004.643.336.251.47Authoritarian
137 Guinea3.143.500.434.444.382.94Authoritarian
138 Rwanda3.070.835.002.224.382.94Authoritarian
139 Kazakhstan3.060.502.144.444.383.82Authoritarian
140 Zimbabwe3.050.502.003.895.633.24Authoritarian
141 Oman3.040.003.932.784.384.12Authoritarian
142 Swaziland3.030.922.862.225.633.53Authoritarian
143 Republic of the Congo2.911.672.863.333.752.94Authoritarian
143 Gambia2.911.753.212.225.002.35Authoritarian
145 Djibouti2.830.422.143.335.632.65Authoritarian
146 Bahrain2.791.253.212.784.382.35Authoritarian
147 United Arab Emirates2.750.003.572.225.002.94Authoritarian
148 Azerbaijan2.650.502.143.333.753.53Authoritarian
149 Afghanistan2.552.501.142.782.503.82Authoritarian
150 Burundi2.40-0.330.793.895.002.65Authoritarian
151 Sudan2.370.001.793.895.001.18Authoritarian
151 Eritrea2.370.002.141.676.881.18Authoritarian
151 Laos2.370.832.861.675.001.47Authoritarian
154 Iran2.340.003.213.893.131.47Authoritarian
155 Libya2.251.000.001.675.632.94Authoritarian
156 Yemen2.070.000.004.445.000.88Authoritarian
157 Guinea-Bissau1.981.670.002.783.132.35Authoritarian
158 Uzbekistan1.950.081.862.225.000.59Authoritarian
159 Democratic Republic of the Congo1.930.920.712.784.380.88Authoritarian
159 Saudi Arabia1.930.002.862.223.131.47Authoritarian
161 Tajikistan1.890.580.071.676.250.88Authoritarian
162 Turkmenistan1.830.000.792.785.000.59Authoritarian
163 Equatorial Guinea1.700.000.432.224.381.47Authoritarian
164 Central African Republic1.611.750.361.112.502.35Authoritarian
165 Chad1.500.000.001.113.752.65Authoritarian
166 Syria1.430.000.002.784.380.00Authoritarian
167 North Korea1.080.002.501.671.250.00Authoritarian
Any individual who states they support democracy has to be able to discuss their point of view without fear of abuse from another. The abuser abuses those they cannot debate for lack of a solid argument. Disapprobation of political policies based on moral grounds cannot be wantonly maltreated purely because what is being said upsets one person's point of view. The whole point of democracy is to air opinions the better to create a moral, just society. Without this balance harmonious accord fractures into a distinct division. And there is too much division in this world and too little love and compassion.

The same is true of religion as it is of politics. Exclusivism excludes. Having your own faith is all fine and dandy but not when belief belittles others of a different faith. Singularity slides into division perpetuating discord. What is surely needed is a plurality.  Exclusivism comes awfully close to fundamentalism much in the way neoliberalism comes awfully close to authoritarianism, even fascism. Extremism of any sort is not only fundamentalism but fundamentally flawed. 

I am a non-theist, that is I do not worship or follow a single, or a pantheon, of deities. That being so does not mean I need be disrespectful to those who do. For me, God is but a word that describes the unknowable, the undefinable. Tao is another for Tao means the way and early Christian's believed their worship of God was the way. If we hold true to the Golden Rule, if we hold true to being compassionate and loving toward all sentient beings then surely having a kinship of faiths is preferable?

To achieve this we must have discourse with those of other faiths. We must endeavour to listen even when sceptical and to be respectful at all times for those other faiths, those other philosophies all hold true to the same Golden Rule I live my life by.


The key to democracy, religion, faith and philosophy is communication and to communicate we must listen.