Showing posts with label Fetch. Show all posts
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Thursday, October 26, 2017

OctPoWriMo 2017: Day 26: Wrong For This World


Wrong For This World
(The tale of Yours Truly and Pepper Baiij, the flawed female protagonist of Team Netherworld's WIP tale, Fetch)

You are wrong for this world, my schoolmates said
You're weird and scary and ugly too
No-one wants to be friends with you


They're right, you know, my inner voice hissed
Echoing the derision or my peers
You are wrong for this world, my schoolmates said


I was always off on flights of fancy to other worlds
To silence the hateful voices telling me
You're weird and scary and ugly too


Sometimes a gentle voice told me I was loved 
But the other voice just laughed and mocked me
No-one wants to be friends with you


Space cadet, the other students sneered
Upon discovering my love for dreaming of the stars
My yearning for a place where I could be free


I always wondered if it were possible
Perhaps I had some sort of hidden worth
Space cadet, the other students sneered

Copyright Lemat Works

You need to stop telling people crazy stories
Try to be more like normal girls, my parents said
Upon discovering my love for dreaming of the stars

Suicidal Ideation by Megan Li

Locked up in the psych ward for a weekend
Is where I ended up in my desperation to pursue
My yearning for a place where I could be free

By any means necessary

~Cie and Pepper~





Wednesday, October 11, 2017

30 Days of Haiga 2017: Day 27: Foggy Finish

Original background image:
Copyright: mpz / 123RF Stock Photo
Verse and text manipulation by The Real Cie
Inspiration from my dear Gem
Another Haiga for Gerry and Pepper as well


Tuesday, October 3, 2017

OctPoWriMo 2017: Day 2: Ship of Lost Dreams

Background image from publicdomainpictures.net
Verse and text manipulation by The Real Cie


The Story:
Today's prompt for OctPoWriMo asks us to tell why we write.
I write because I'd commit suicide if I didn't, and then I'd have to haunt the bullies who love killing dreams and torturing misfits. It's so much easier to just stick around and keep pissing them off by remaining alive.
I'm old, I'm tired, and I'm blunt. I don't take others down, but I tell my truth with no apologies. I have had a difficult year, and there was a period of time when I didn't know if I could write anymore.
I continue to do so because I don't want the assholes who said I couldn't do it to win.
Even if I'm the only one who reads my words, I've written them. So the bastards haven't won yet.
There you have it.

~Cie~

For all -666 readers of Fetch:
I share this Haiga with you because many of Pepper's experiences are fictionalized mirrors of my own. Eventually, the Team will get back to writing the tale, and you will see.

Friday, December 23, 2016

Doreen Virtue Angel Quiz

Angel of the Golden Light

The following is a quiz from Doreen Virtue's book "Earth Angels." For each statement decide if it's true or false. Scoring below.

 1. I tend to easily put on (or lose) extra weight, or I'm currently over (under) weight.
The size acceptance persona in me says "over what weight?" However, I am technically "overweight" according to the BMI charts. By the way, the B in BMI stands for bullshit. You are more than a number on a scale.

 2. My past or current love partners are addicts or alcoholics.
True

 3. I rarely break a rule.
I don't break rules where doing so would harm anyone. I'm reasonably law-abiding, but I care more about doing the right thing than abiding by rules.

 4. I have a hard time saying no.
True

 5. I highlight, color, or bleach my hair.
No, but I used to.

 6. I would prefer to help someone one-on-one, rather than in a group setting.
True. This is why I prefer doing home care to working in an institutional setting.

 7. Truth to be told, I like animals or plants much better than I like people.
True

 8. I have Celtic origins, or I look Celtic (that is, I have reddish hair, or a ruddy complexion).
True. I am a Heinz 57. I have a lot of Scotch-Irish heritage.

 9. I constantly play practical jokes.
Not so much any more, but in our younger day, my brother and I lived to prank each other.

 10. I'm quite the mischief maker, and seem to have a persitent twinkle in my eyes.
I like a good bawdy joke and I swear a lot. I like to play harmless pranks, but the opportunity doesn't arise very often these days.

 11. I'm fiercely independent and don't like following rules or authority.
True. It tends to get me in trouble.

12. My finances seem to be either feast or famine.
Usually famine.

 13. I don't like being the center of attention, and I'm usually a wallflower at social functions.
This is where I'm weird. If I'm playing a part (or an instrument, assuming you want to hear it played badly) I have very little stage fright. As far as public speaking goes, I don't think anyone could understand a word I said over the shaking in my voice, and I don't tend to dive right in at social functions. In my younger day, I would go to a party and get plastered. That was my "socializing." I'm actually very shy, and I don't really enjoy going to parties.

 14. I've always believed in, or been interested in ET's or UFO's.
I did when I was younger. Currently, not so much, though I try to keep an open mind.

 15. I'm compulsively thoughtful toward people, whether they express appreciation or not.
Pretty much.

 16. I conduct Reiki or other forms of energy or hands-on-healing.
I've always wanted to learn how.

 17. My life's mission is more important than getting married and having children.
Difficult to say at this juncture. My son is the most important person in my life. I did not love his father romantically speaking, although I like him very well as a friend, and to me, he is and always will be family. It was always very important to me to find romantic love. I never did with an incarnate person.

 18. I really would like to go home now, because I know that Earth isn't my home.
True.

 19. I had a life-changing experience, such as a serious accident or near-death experience.
I almost died while in labor with my son, but I didn't have an NDE.

 20. In the past, I was so miserable that I wanted to die and seriously considered (or attempted) suicide.
Multiple times.

 21. I have changed my first name, or I am strongly considering doing so.
I'm Cie to my online friends, but I'm also okay with Cara at this point. I never liked my name when I was younger. I told my mother "Cara smells of onions." I wanted my name to be Linda. I liked that name. I thought about using Lorraine (my middle name) but by the time I was 16 I realized that I wouldn't know who people were talking to, so I just stuck with Cara.
Cara, in my case, is pronounced Care-ah, like "I care" rather than "Car-ah", like "I drive-ah the car-ah." Cie is pronounced "see," not "sigh." I should have spelled it Cee to avoid confusion, but I liked the way Cie looked better.

 22. My family and friends remark, "You're different now. There's something about you that's not the same."
I don't think I've ever had anyone say that to me.

 23. I have made, or am making, drastic changes to many areas of my life simultaneously (such as moving, changing jobs, and divorcing) all at once.
Not really. I'm always doing too much.

 24. I have deep spiritual knowledge that didn't come from any books or teachers.
I feel like most of the books out there are missing something.

 25. Even though I know I'm different from other people, I still enjoy the company of others and get along pretty well with most people.
I get along okay with people at this point, but I tend to hide the truth about myself.

 26. I know that I have magical abilities, which are untapped right now.
I believe this is so.

 27. I have strong past-life memories or interests concerning Arthurian or Atlantean times.
True.

 28. I believe that I was burned at the stake, or killed in some other way, during the witch hunts or Inquisition.
True.

 29. I have studied Tarot cards or astrology.
True.

 30. I'm very drawn toward Earth-based spirituality, such as shamanism or full-moon ceremonies.
I'm drawn towards all sorts of spiritual areas. I once had a spiritual teacher tell me that I had to choose one to focus on. I said I couldn't, that it didn't ring true to me.
The moon holds quite the fascination for me, however. Gem said it also does for him, as does nature-based Magick.

 SCORING: The number of TRUE answers that you noted may reveal which realm you're from. Count the number of TRUE answers for each successive grouping of six questions, beginning with the first six.

 ~ For example, if you answered four or more TRUE's to question 1 through 6, then you're probably an INCARNATED ANGEL. (That is, the more questions you answered TRUE to, the more likely you are fit into this category).
I'd say I answered these all true with caveats. I no longer dye my hair, and while I tend to be law-abiding, I will break rules if I feel they harm people.

 ~ If you answered four or more TRUE's to question 7 through 12, then you're probably an INCARNATED ELEMENTAL.
These are mostly true as well. Perhaps I'm a fallen angel who played at being an elemental for a while.

 ~ If you responded TRUE four or more times to question 13 through 18, then you're most likely a STARPERSON.
These kind of ring true for me too. Who's to say that a person can't have incarnated on multiple planets? While I'm on the fence about whether we've had intelligent visitors to this planet, I'm not at all on my fence regarding the belief that there are sentient beings on other planets. Simple statistics put the odds in favor of this.

 ~ If you had four or more TRUE answers to questions 19 through 24, then you're probably a WALK-IN.
I find some truth here as well. I need to learn more about walk-ins.

 ~ If you answered TRUE four or more times to questions 25 through 30, then you're most likely a WISE ONE.
I answered true for most of these, though I think it's more likely that I'm a wise ass.

I still don't know exactly what I am, but the fallen angel idea has always held an appeal for me.

Gem and I explore a lot of these ideas in our WIP novel, Fetch, which can be found at peppersfetch.blogspot.com

Will my Angel card be revoked for shameless self promotion?

~Cie~

I found the quiz here:
https://www.facebook.com/notes/shaman-angels-energy-healers-truth-warriors-the-lightworkers-journey/are-you-an-earth-angel-take-this-quiz-by-doreen-virtue/223572214370886

Sunday, October 23, 2016

OctPoWriMo 2016: Day 23: Fantastical



Fantastical

I never meant to hurt you, my dear love
In a world full of pain and suffering
You are an angel from above
I live for every message that you bring
You gave to me such comforting
Your Earthly situation made me grieve
In this world of othering
Your love became too fantastical to believe

We fit together like a hand in glove
I wanted to heal you with my nurturing
Never has another made me feel so beloved
But I so fear rejection's sting
It's my soul you'd end up murdering
I'm so afraid you'd only leave
That my need for you is smothering
Your love became too fantastical to believe

With soft feathers like a peaceful dove
I would stroke your angel wings
You were everything I was dreaming of
But I fear I don't deserve anything
So I end up losing everything
I fear to give and to receive
You were too good for this world to bring
Your love became too fantastical to believe

I gave you my heart on a string
Then left you alone to grieve
My sad angel with the broken wings
Your love became too fantastical to believe
 For Gerry Clifford
from Pepper Baiij

Form:

  a, b, a, b, b, c, b, C and the envoy b, c, b, C.

https://poetsonthepage.blogspot.com/

Thursday, October 20, 2016

OctPoWriMo 2016: Day 20: Pure Soul



Pure Soul

Your soul pure white like a heavenly dove
With a spot of red upon its breast
It seems you have been cursed, not blessed
Your life a hopeless search for love
I invited you to come to me
You were like a bird with a broken wing
You thought you'd forgotten how to sing
I wanted to try to help you see
While your voice in this world is gone
The song from your soul cannot be so
Shut your eyes and sing soft and low
With me you can always belong
  Let your wings carry you to the Heavens up high
Where there will never be any more reason to cry

Pepper Baiij
for
Gerry Clifford

Form: 

https://poetsonthepage.blogspot.com/





Dedicated to Malcolm Young
from
Team Netherworld 
 

Sunday, October 2, 2016

OctPoWriMo 2016: Day 2: The Void


The Void

Grieving your undeserved ending
Eyes filled with tears for your fate
Running from the one who would destroy your soul
Reaching out for help when you fear there is none
Yearning for love, you came to me

Couldn't stop falling in love if I tried
Let me put you in my pocket and keep you safe
Ice formed in my heart after being hurt so many times
Frozen inside, I tried to resist
Feelings for you that leave me vulnerable
Only you can save me now
Reach into the void that is my broken heart
Dream with me now and forever

To: Gerry Clifford
From: Pepper Baiij
Style: Acrostic

http://poetsonthepage.blogspot.com/

Wednesday, January 20, 2016

Wordless Wednesday Fail: Spiraling Into the Past

Spiraling Into the Past, Version 6


Spiraling Into the Past, Version 7

Photoshop images by The Real Cie

Back in the present, Pepper listened to the strains she'd discovered all those years ago. Then they had been the sounds of freedom and rebellion. Now, although her love for these songs had never died, there was something quaint about them, accompanied by a heart-wrenching sense of loss.

From "Fetch," Team Netherworld's WIP Novel
Dedicated with love to Malcolm Young for everything he made possible

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Hello, and welcome to another Wordless Wednesday Fail, where the Real Cie shows images (often things she's done in Photoshop) and refuses to comply with the "wordless" part of "Wordless Wednesday".
Youth is wasted on the young. When I bought this album, I was young (fourteen) and super stupid. I think I really believed these guys would be like they are on this album forever. Older than me but still young enough. Sassy, impish, but nowhere in the vicinity of actual evil, like some morons made them out to be. Actually, in spite of the provocative humor, they were really sweet people who just wanted to make the world a more enjoyable place. I loved that about them.
I never thought that less than a year after I bought this album that Bon Scott would be dead.
I could not have imagined that Phil Rudd would end up a meth addict, estranged from the band and in trouble with the law for making foolish, drug-fueled threats towards a person with whom he had a disagreement.
I certainly never thought that Malcolm Young, who created the band, would have his cognitive abilities destroyed to the point where he could no longer remember the works he created, where he didn't know the brother to whom he was so very close, and where he didn't even know who he himself was.
Y'all can't tell me that this plane of existence isn't Purgatory. I'm convinced that it is. Those of us who are stuck here are just trying to get by. Some of us, like these guys, try to make it a little nicer for their fellow inmates.
Maybe if we all learn the lesson that we need to treat each other a little more kindly, we can get out of here.

~Cie~

http://wordlesswednesday.blogspot.com/2016/01/january-20.html

Monday, August 3, 2015

Remembering Lafayette

I've been working on creating a tattoo in memory of my dear and special feline friend. It will go on my left shoulder. The artwork is by Kami Diox. You can check her out at kamidiox.tumblr.com or kamidiox.deviantart.com
Although I miss Lafayette very much and I wish I could feel his presence the way I feel Gem's (I.e. hugs and warmth) I've been dealing with things. I sensed Lafayette "saying" to me:
"Don't be sad, Mommy. I was happy living here with you. I had a happy life. I'm okay now. I still love you."
Now, I know a cat probably wouldn't use those exact words, but that's how his emotions translated to me. The thing about it is, I receive emotions. My brain translates them into sentences I can understand.
I told Lafayette that I love him very much too and always will, and I will be happy when we're able to meet again. I miss having him come sit up on my shoulder when I lie down. I miss him kneading me. Heck, I even miss the fact that he always stuck his butt right in my face when he sat down on me. Why that cat couldn't be face to face with me, I'll never know. But no, it was always "whoop, here's my butt!"
I like my new job, and Gem and I are doing a lot of writing together on "Fetch."
I haven't been able to continue with my Supernatural rewatch yet. Lafayette always used to sit with me when I was watching and making notes and such. I think I'll be able to start again soon. He'd want me to.
For anyone who think that sounds stupid, well, I guess you think that sounds stupid. However, I sense that he really would want me to do this.
I believe that's all for right now.
 
~Cie~