Remembering Lafayette

I've been working on creating a tattoo in memory of my dear and special feline friend. It will go on my left shoulder. The artwork is by Kami Diox. You can check her out at kamidiox.tumblr.com or kamidiox.deviantart.com

Although I miss Lafayette very much and I wish I could feel his presence the way I feel Gem's (I.e. hugs and warmth) I've been dealing with things. I sensed Lafayette "saying" to me:

"Don't be sad, Mommy. I was happy living here with you. I had a happy life. I'm okay now. I still love you."

Now, I know a cat probably wouldn't use those exact words, but that's how his emotions translated to me. The thing about it is, I receive emotions. My brain translates them into sentences I can understand.

I told Lafayette that I love him very much too and always will, and I will be happy when we're able to meet again. I miss having him come sit up on my shoulder when I lie down. I miss him kneading me. Heck, I even miss the fact that he always stuck his butt right in my face when he sat down on me. Why that cat couldn't be face to face with me, I'll never know. But no, it was always "whoop, here's my butt!"

I like my new job, and Gem and I are doing a lot of writing together on "Fetch."

I haven't been able to continue with my Supernatural rewatch yet. Lafayette always used to sit with me when I was watching and making notes and such. I think I'll be able to start again soon. He'd want me to.

For anyone who think that sounds stupid, well, I guess you think that sounds stupid. However, I sense that he really would want me to do this.

I believe that's all for right now.

 

~Cie~

Healing Spell Day 1

This music was suggested by my friend Dolly. Thank you, Dolly! It's perfect.

My special friend suggested that we choose oracle cards from my Doreen Virtue oracle cards decks for the four elements. We received Guinevere from the Goddess Guidance deck for Earth, a mermaid with the message Set Your Sights Higher from the Magical Mermaids and Dolphins deck, Miracle Healing for the air element from the Healing With the Fairies deck, and Emerging for the fire element from the Healing with Angels deck.

While I am still saddened that there will be no miraculous recovery for him (he does deserve it), he says that at this point his role is to work from the spirit realm, and he is okay with that. His role always was to be a guide for others, even if he didn't always realize it.

I had a really good feeling about this healing. I was able to perceive the presence of elemental spirits, and their energy was very bright and positive. I feel a bit more at ease and like there is less of a struggle. I can breathe easier when doing this spell.

The thought comes to me that although bone cancer is certainly a very serious condition, it is easier working with the energies of a young person with greater recuperative powers (despite the fact that he has a severe form of Ehlers-Danlos syndrome, a disabling genetic condition). Working with the energies of a critically ill older person (my special friend is in his early sixties) was significantly harder.

Typical of him:

"The spirit was willing, but the flesh is fucked."

The Heavens had better never expect conformity from, as Dolly called him, this gritty Bodhisattva.

Blessings and light to all who read this.

Merry meet and merry part and merry meet again.

Love and light,

Cie

and friends

Healing Spell Day 10

Got this recommendation from my friend Seth. He and his wife Sadie are also "of a mind" and are doing healing spells to help in this matter as well, so thank you Seth and Sadie.

Most of what can be reported at this point comes from the astral level. I am empathic by nature and I started feeling my friend's emotional pain. It was distinctly different from my own pain, which I feel when I think of what he is going through. This was his. I didn't want to internalize it because then I can't help him. 

I talked to him about what he's feeling. During the spell work he realized that he has never thought he deserved anything good. He strived hard to overcome poverty in his early life, but internalized the message that he was somehow "lesser" even while combating said message. He's always come out swinging, either figuratively or literally, when attacked or threatened, on behalf of others as well as himself. 

His thoughts:

"I guess I was what you could call tough, and I was strong in that I stood my ground. But a lot of the time I felt like I was putting on an act, and if I dropped the act people would see how worthless I really was."

Messages like this are hard to overcome.

I wish I had the energy to put into doing this work every day, but I generally don't. It isn't that the work makes me feel drained. It doesn't. But I don't feel like I can maintain proper intensity if I do it every day. The work deserves the best I have to give, and so does the person I'm doing it for.

Did I mention, cats are actually terrible familiars? One of my cats has been nicknamed "destructor" for his tendency to jump into the middle of card layouts.

Love and Light,

Cie

Healing Spellwork Day 9

First of all, boy am I glad I discovered this! It really worked. I was able to sleep for six hours (up once for a pee break, if you knew me you wouldn't be at all surprised by that.) It was decided that this would actually bring positive energies to the spell, so I just kept it running.

The angel card today was Desiree, and her message indicates that conditions aren't yet favorable for manifestation of a solid outcome. My spectral friend was discouraged. I encouraged him to realize that this is not a "never" message, it's a "not yet" message. 

There was some emotional residue and upset working its way to the surface and I encouraged him to express it so that by getting it on the outside it can be analyzed and deconstructed. There is a feeling that he thinks he doesn't deserve a miracle, and we are working to counteract this because he truly believes that he has more he could do on the physical plane.

The gist of what I am perceiving from him boils down to this.

"I am not a bad person. I truly want to do good, and I truly want things to work out for everybody in the best way possible. I am not a patient person, and sometimes my impatience and my insecurities caused me to take actions which were hurtful. I regret this. There are some things I wish I could undo."

One of the aspects that the light spells address is the emotional and psychic aspect of the illness, not just the physical. These spells concentrate on helping him heal on all levels.

The spell I have been using is the healing spell from the Janina Renee Tarot Spells book, as well as modified versions of spells from the pages mentioned in the post for the first healing session.

Addressing my state of mind, I think the fact that my B vitamin supplement arrived has helped. B vitamins tend to be very helpful for people with mood disorders. A good B vitamin supplement can help minimize depressive feelings and thoughts of suicide ideation. I'm glad I was on an upswing today so I was able to support my friend when he was feeling down.

Something I want to address.

I have never believed that the only course of action in the case of human spirits is to immediately "send them to the light." I think this attitude does them a great disservice. If a spirit is disruptive, then this would be the proper course of action because it is causing harm to the incarnate person, and the angelic entities will be better able to address its concerns. 

If the spirit is not disruptive but is merely asking for help and possibly offering help in return, the choice of action is that of the person whom the spirit has approached. I generally choose to talk to the spirit and find out what he or she wants and needs. The spirits who approach me are almost always male. I'm not sure why this is.

In any case, the entity I'm currently dealing with has a body that 's still alive though in a badly compromised state, so actions taken on his behalf are somewhat different than they would be for a completely discarnate spirit.

If anyone who knows me (or who I sense I can trust) wants to assist with this, we appreciate all positive energy contributions. Email me, or leave your email address in the comments so I can email you. Any help or guidance is appreciated. 

Blessings,

Cie

(and friend)

Healing Spell Day 8 with music from Adrian Von Ziegler

The beautiful compositions of Adrian Von Ziegler lend themselves well to both meditation and background for creative work. Please go check out this underrated artist.

Channeled thought from the spirit whom I have been helping:

Don't be afraid of the dark. Don't be afraid of the word dark. People associate dark with evil. This is erroneous. The dark can be soft and benevolent. We need the dark as much as we need the light.

In my life, I was often associated with the dark, as in dark equaling evil. I have been angry inside, mostly over perceived hurts or actual hurts. I have a depressive personality. I am curious about what might be termed the Occult. I have what might be termed psychic abilities to a degree. I believe in what might be labeled mysticism or metaphysics. I am not evil by nature, but perhaps I am dark by nature.

Our work together is always good. I encouraged him to know it's okay to hope for a miracle. He deserves it. I also encouraged him to know that it's okay to believe he deserves it. He's a very modest personality and isn't given to thinking that he particularly deserves things. 

We also started using the Doreen Virtue Angel Guidance deck to give us the name of an angel who is helping with the spell on a given day. Today it was Isaiah. We thank him for his assistance.

I also learned that Valium disrupts my ability to communicate with spirits. I had to have a rather involved (translate: horrible) dental procedure on Tuesday. I took 20 mg of Valium, which only made me feel like I'd had one drink. 5 mg usually knocks me on my ass. I guess that's how keyed up I was about the procedure.

I had felt the presence of my spectral friend there to support me, until the Valium kicked in. Then I couldn't sense him any more. This made me even more distressed.

All I can say is, thank all that's holy for nitrous oxide, or I never would have gotten through it.

It took a day for the Valium to start wearing off enough that I could sense spectral presences again.

Just a little information for those who communicate with spirits. Certain meds can interfere with your abilities.

We wish all who are reading this peace.

In love and light,

Cie

Healing Spell Day Seven with Seven Hour Space Meditation

I'm glad my friend Poe suggested this one--it's powerful!

I didn't do anything but general sending of love and light for several days because my energies were very drained due to circumstances at work. 

The other friend with whom I've been consulting regarding this matter says that the red candles discussed in this post indicate that my subject is doing work on the astral level and is determined to help as much as possible. Thus, at this juncture, I have changed this to strictly a healing spell. We are, in fact, shooting for a miracle.

His energy was fearful when he first approached me. His determination has increased. I want to keep supporting him, whatever he needs to do. This is my intention.

Thank you to the friends who are supporting me in this matter. I'm used to flying by the seat of my pants. I'm glad I don't have to go it completely alone with this.

Love,

Cie