Healing Spell Day 10

Got this recommendation from my friend Seth. He and his wife Sadie are also "of a mind" and are doing healing spells to help in this matter as well, so thank you Seth and Sadie.

Most of what can be reported at this point comes from the astral level. I am empathic by nature and I started feeling my friend's emotional pain. It was distinctly different from my own pain, which I feel when I think of what he is going through. This was his. I didn't want to internalize it because then I can't help him. 

I talked to him about what he's feeling. During the spell work he realized that he has never thought he deserved anything good. He strived hard to overcome poverty in his early life, but internalized the message that he was somehow "lesser" even while combating said message. He's always come out swinging, either figuratively or literally, when attacked or threatened, on behalf of others as well as himself. 

His thoughts:

"I guess I was what you could call tough, and I was strong in that I stood my ground. But a lot of the time I felt like I was putting on an act, and if I dropped the act people would see how worthless I really was."

Messages like this are hard to overcome.

I wish I had the energy to put into doing this work every day, but I generally don't. It isn't that the work makes me feel drained. It doesn't. But I don't feel like I can maintain proper intensity if I do it every day. The work deserves the best I have to give, and so does the person I'm doing it for.

Did I mention, cats are actually terrible familiars? One of my cats has been nicknamed "destructor" for his tendency to jump into the middle of card layouts.

Love and Light,

Cie

Healing Spellwork Day 9

First of all, boy am I glad I discovered this! It really worked. I was able to sleep for six hours (up once for a pee break, if you knew me you wouldn't be at all surprised by that.) It was decided that this would actually bring positive energies to the spell, so I just kept it running.

The angel card today was Desiree, and her message indicates that conditions aren't yet favorable for manifestation of a solid outcome. My spectral friend was discouraged. I encouraged him to realize that this is not a "never" message, it's a "not yet" message. 

There was some emotional residue and upset working its way to the surface and I encouraged him to express it so that by getting it on the outside it can be analyzed and deconstructed. There is a feeling that he thinks he doesn't deserve a miracle, and we are working to counteract this because he truly believes that he has more he could do on the physical plane.

The gist of what I am perceiving from him boils down to this.

"I am not a bad person. I truly want to do good, and I truly want things to work out for everybody in the best way possible. I am not a patient person, and sometimes my impatience and my insecurities caused me to take actions which were hurtful. I regret this. There are some things I wish I could undo."

One of the aspects that the light spells address is the emotional and psychic aspect of the illness, not just the physical. These spells concentrate on helping him heal on all levels.

The spell I have been using is the healing spell from the Janina Renee Tarot Spells book, as well as modified versions of spells from the pages mentioned in the post for the first healing session.

Addressing my state of mind, I think the fact that my B vitamin supplement arrived has helped. B vitamins tend to be very helpful for people with mood disorders. A good B vitamin supplement can help minimize depressive feelings and thoughts of suicide ideation. I'm glad I was on an upswing today so I was able to support my friend when he was feeling down.

Something I want to address.

I have never believed that the only course of action in the case of human spirits is to immediately "send them to the light." I think this attitude does them a great disservice. If a spirit is disruptive, then this would be the proper course of action because it is causing harm to the incarnate person, and the angelic entities will be better able to address its concerns. 

If the spirit is not disruptive but is merely asking for help and possibly offering help in return, the choice of action is that of the person whom the spirit has approached. I generally choose to talk to the spirit and find out what he or she wants and needs. The spirits who approach me are almost always male. I'm not sure why this is.

In any case, the entity I'm currently dealing with has a body that 's still alive though in a badly compromised state, so actions taken on his behalf are somewhat different than they would be for a completely discarnate spirit.

If anyone who knows me (or who I sense I can trust) wants to assist with this, we appreciate all positive energy contributions. Email me, or leave your email address in the comments so I can email you. Any help or guidance is appreciated. 

Blessings,

Cie

(and friend)

Healing or Release Spell Day 6

There are some amazing images in this video that blogging teammate Thalia recommended.

I don't know how cats came to be thought of as familiars for practitioners of magick. Mine are a huge pain in the butt! They like to charge through the middle of the tarot card setup and sit in the middle of my spell book.

The friend who I am helping with this spell work told me (psychically) that he isn't afraid of his body dying. I said that I felt that he had unfinished business. He said the only unfinished business is the fact that he wasn't ready to be finished and had more that he wanted to do. 

I can't tell him what to do, certainly. I can only offer him my support. The choice is entirely his.

Also, to offer him my love. Because I have that in spades for him. I hope somehow it helps.

~Cie~

Healing or Release Spell Day 3 and 4

I used this meditation today. Ocean sounds are always very soothing and helpful.

Yesterday I was still receiving feelings of fear/resistance from the soul who asked for my help in this matter. Today he seemed much more at peace and indicated that he wanted to help with the spellwork. 

There is a disconnect although not a complete one between this spirit and his body, due to the fact that the physical brain is so badly compromised. If there is a miraculous healing of the physical brain, he will be able to use the body again and thus the disconnect will be resolved.

I have worked with incarnate people on the astral level before, but this person operates as something between an astral projection and a discarnate spirit. It is a very unique situation. 

I sense angelic energies from him. He was a more advanced being than he was aware of. I feel honored to work with such a person, although I wish it could be under happier circumstances. I hope to be able to help him create such circumstances.

On a soul level, he needs to heal from the traumas/illusions that caused his depressive and addictive tendencies. There is a level of self-doubt and self-hate that needs resolution. 

He is actually quite easy to work with. He is pleasant and polite in manner, but beyond this, there is a desire to please those who extend their kindness to him in a genuine fashion, and also a desire to do those things which are good and right. There is a desire to return kind gestures. There is also a realness and an honesty which is a rare commodity.

I can only hope I am able to do some good in this situation.

Everything I do in this matter I do from a place of love and light.

Peace to all who read this.

~Cie~

Healing Spellwork Second Day

The candle meditations that can be found on You Tube are helpful. They come with peaceful music that helps one focus on this sort of spellwork.

I got some input from a good friend regarding the spells I mentioned yesterday. She said that since my subject has three conditions requiring healing, the spell using the three candles was a good one. With the purple candle I focus on the heart condition, with the blue on healing the lung cancer, and with the white on healing the brain from the dementia. Then utilize white light and the healing jar spell to send general positive energy and obtain the best outcome for him, whether that be a miraculous healing of body and mind or release from his body. I was very grateful for this advice.

I mentioned to my friend that it had been years since I dealt with people on a spiritual level because of trauma inflicted on me in the past by cruel and narrow-minded people. I told her that I would not have extended myself this way for anybody else. This person is very special to me. When he needed my help, I could not see fit to turn him down.

I am sensing a fair bit of psychic pain on his part, things that he's holding onto. I am hoping to help him with these things, with the assistance of higher spiritual beings. He's an advanced soul but has become mired in pain and trauma.

He held metaphysical beliefs, so I am working with the goddesses Brigid and Nanna to assist him. My friend who provided advice mentioned that when she was working with her ailing mother, her mother was Catholic, so she used images from the Christian pantheon. I feel it is well to work within the subject's belief system. If the subject is an atheist, I imagine that general positive energy is apropos.

I am learning as I go. It's been a while since I did spell work and I was a bit rusty. But I am determined to help this special spirit in one way or another. If there is one thing I can do to honor him, I feel it is this: never let others take away my power again.

In love and light,

Cie